Dilemma...
Should I be happy or what? I dont know... I'm having some sort of mixed feeling right now.Perhaps I shall be glad that I'm done with my first year of uni. Yes, no more lectures + tutes in uni, only left with 1 essay & 3 exams to go, then I can officially call first year an end. It wont be long though, 3 more weeks.
Again, I havent started my revisions yet and the essay. Haih...
Also I'm having some kind of dilemma now, regarding subject selection. I'm undecisive about what direction should I head in my studies. I had to re-enrol by mid November, already done with the Arts component, left Commerce ones. Should I follow my original plan of doing International Management + Finance or should I change my mind now???
All the while, I really thought myself will like management rather than accounting, economics, etc. I dont know about accounting, because I havent do any accounting subject in uni. Actually, I quite enjoy it though during A-Levels time. Erm...or maybe I just like the sense of achievement? Hehe...whenever I can solve the question, ie get the balance sheet balance, prepare the P&L correctly, I feel happy. :) Also I feel I quite like economics at this moment. Is it because I got only H3 for MPO assignments and in contrast I got like H1 in my economics assignments?
I really feel that management is a bit boring lo, after doing MPO. Is it the problem with this subject alone or really the area management is not my cup of tea? I dont know.... I really get demotivated every time I get my MPO assignments back, are they so not good? I always expect I can get H1/H2A/H2B for them lo, H3 is a grade I dont wish to see. I felt I did not bad what, but why? Twice, I got dissapointed twice! :(
And most of the people I know, all wanna do accounting + finance, most of them, except one who wanna do management. Somehow, they say this combination have a better career prospect wor... Btw, uncle will be doing economics + finance. Am I distracted by them? I admit I'm a bit kiasu, ok? I really scare when I graduate, no company wanna employ me lo... I cant take it man! 'Invested' some much 'funds' in my higher education here, if no 'return' then die la! Investment like this rugi better! How u expect me to accept???
Argh... Dilemma... Should I rethink about my direction now? Am I taking the correct path that will lead me to success, achievement, recognition and life that I'd always dream of? Should I consider doing economics + finance which is a much more popular combination? Argh...I'm so so confused. (But, for sure I'll do Finance.) Or should I do a bit of economics & management subjects and all of them will be related to International business/trade. But I got constraints chosing subjects lo, not enough space in the degree structure!
Decision, decision, decision. Choice, choice, choice. No matter which choice I made, I'll forgo something, forgo the path that I didnt chosse and I'll never know what outcome will I get if I chossen that path. Either path I chosse, I'll lose, maybe it'll be pain, or maybe it'll be gain. No one knows, God knows perhaps. Will I regret or will I be glad with the path I chosse?
Just like "The Road Not Taken". I dont know which road to follow now...
Am I thinking way too much? Perhaps, I should just follow my intuition, the very very original intuition of mine...
I'll asking myself way too much questions at this time... I shall concentrate on my essay + exams first...
posted by Dan Xuan @ 12:13 AM
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